Monday, May 07, 2007
Sick of my life in ite...really sick of it. Been in sch for abt 3 weeks and after this week end, going to be the fourth week in ite. People see it thinks it fast but people dun like it thinks it slow. After i posted to this sch, another changes make ard me, and i noe people make changes in life cus life change them and so they have to accept it no matter hw...so y dun just "TRY" to accept it even dun like or hate it.
I noe i hate it...real hate it, the life i have nw but hw!...cry, angry, studdorn...or etc. people will think i childish. I hate ite life since the day i went in ite and inside ite world cn sae lots of different kind of people. But no choice. Since the day i in in ite that day i sld not that i'm not kids and have to be a well-prepare adult which that day i step in ite. My life, my world changes. Firstly in BS ItE, i really dun like so much. But noe some friend true my heart for period, they really a nice friend i have in BS ite they help me and cn understand what i wan for and looking for and they help me. So happy and wonderful their even they noe that i'm a quiet girl for most time. It's take 2-3 weeks just to noe them and get along with them.
But now...now in SM ite, changes! I'm loss...the old apple i cnt find. In tis sch until now still cnt find a friend which cn be at least 50% alike character. I noe in tis class...i'm like a nobody who friend sae i'm like a "hackcarer"(means hack-care) which i'm totally not, and sae i a quiet person(admit that i'm quiet but noe me long le also noe i'm not). Every little move i make jus find irrateing even myself cnt stand my-self. I noe they(sm ite "F") want to help me and help me get to poly. But i dun wan...i wan to enjoy and cherish what i have now, like for example: i quiet in class, cn tok to me in soft voice. When there is mini project Presentation i also noe that u all want me to tok more i noe...but dun suddenly force ppl to tok and present. Making me loss and loss...i dun noe...tha give me idotic face.
I nd time and nd my confidence. Now i cnt find myself back hw i find time and confidence too. U all making me jus like fool a fool and the word "respect" is it so diffcult to understand, and other "try to understand" also diffcult?. All i wan is that give me abit time, try to understand...not i tell u all but u all still hack-care and give me idotic face(esp one of my friend). Until nw...i no happy since i step in tis sch not happy at all. No friend who is jus abit like me and we share same comments so i cn tok to her when in nd, share joys with her when in nd, play together when in nd. NO ONE! no one at all. total 5 of us in group but they jus do own things. 2 of them alike and other 3 of them alike in character...for me...left alone with own character. Sometime, hate myself and think of myself really hate what i been doing. Come to sch see their face make me areadi like...siao. Hate my class ppl for some of them...Imagine for 2yrs...wah....2yrs heres.....sien sien sien
I REALLY SO SICK AND TIRED OF MY LIFE FOR NW...I ND BREAK! BREAK! BREAK! LOSSING APPLE WHO LOSS IN SM ITE SINCE THE DAY SHE IN! HATE IT SO MUCH BUT IN A "NO" CHOICE WAY, ACCPECT REALITY CUS IT THE FACT OF THE REAL WORLD.
Memorries_Tears 
|10:01 PM|
"Tears泪 moments dairy"
Hello. Welcome to my blog. Named by me as [http://www.memorriestears.blogspot.com/] this is my links where I post my memories and add on my newness life doing. I'm a forgetful person so my Blog help me link my past and my connections with my friends who near me. And like my links memorriestears is my memories may have tears shed, may have happinese sweet by sweet follow, news abt star or idols that i like and news may find here too, so have a drop by to my blog and let my memories touches you.
International Food
February 2005
