Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Today LSM exam. Really stress up especially "Section B" almost nvr do it and the more stress of it is that it carry 40 marks. Die liao lor. And also today i'm the last second ppl to reach class for exam but the First, 3rd wan to pass up. Actually, i could be the 1st one in class to hand up paper cus the first thing i get my paper, i go through the paper than after that write my name before starting. And so, I start on "Section B" first so to see whether i rmb any of it. But the answer for it's is "NO!" i forget abt all and some of the question i study does not out. So, i start to stress my mind. So, noeing i cnt make it or do it i shld jus straight away do the MCQ and hand it up to teacher but i nvr be the 1st one to hand at last, cus i did still look back on "Section B" too see whether i still rmb some of it and fill it up. But lucky i cn sae is that manage to do at least 13 & 14 question A.
And also nvm, today woke up early in the morning ard 6 plus cus jus to recap again my LSM(but still fail if noe i will fail i really dun bother to recap and go through), but u noe...too tired to think any of it. My head blank in morning. Too slpy to think of any question or study. U noe...my head have been over my limit, limit till i cnt think any thing or care other thing. Too tired reason due to sch...i sick of going home and back to sch. Since the 2nd week of my sch daes start i been going sch after that back sch after that home again...and also so sorries for su, cus maybe i will be failing nope is cmf failing my LSM as last saturday she tot me even she tired. 大姐, 对不起。
And also so sorry for my friend(ES, SU, CL, YB and Two of my bishan ite friend) who worries me whether i attend sch anot. Cus i noe u all scare i gt debar but i noe what i doing so dun scared. Since what i have done i will responsible for it. I'm not kids anymore...but for nw please jus beg u all cn jus treat me like kids i really wan to be kids cus loss in a big city which i dun belong too. I'm a bad girl too...make my parent worries especially my mum and dad...whenever at home i wan t0 tell lie telling hw my life for today bring a fake smile home i really wan to run away with it...hate it. I'm nt apple and for those finding apple i think she have gone which she use to be but noe this apple, i'm a air nw which jus feel it went u wan me ard went dun wan me walk away. This is the much i cn do. My mind for this whole mnth cn sae prepare to be blank. And comeing up project make me sick of it cus our teacher(LSM) last min tell. And i also hate the pharse which ask me to hang-on till i end my this 2yrs course...i really wish to end it soon but s0 tired to think. But promise my friend i will at least try. If i complete is course thnks my parent and friend(especially es&su). But dunnoe they noe that i really too tired of my life, they cn see, they cn feel...i dunnoe, but for them i try to hang-on till with my last breath.
[MY FEEL MY MIND NOW I SHOUTED IT OUT]: AT THE START I KEEP ASKING MYSELF DID I DO THE RIGHT CHOICE FOR GOING SIMEI ITE, A BIG SCHOOL WHICH I WISH TO GO SINCE 2005. BUT THE ANSWER IS I DUNNOE I'M LOSS! I FEEL LIKE I HAVE MAKE A BIG MISTAKE OR MAYBE I GOT PROBLEM WHICH MAYBE I DUNNOE ABOUT IT. NOT THAT I MISS MY BISHAN LIFE BUT ITE LIFE IS COMPLETE DIFFERENT SOMETIME MAKE ME HATE ITE LIFE AND HATE MYSELF. AND WHEN I TOOK MY NITEC OFFICE SKILL I SLD STOP AND SHLD'NT MOVE UP TO HIGHER NITEC STRAIGHT GO WORK. I NOE I WILL "HUO HUI" BUT SINCE THE YEAR 2005 ITE LIFE REALLY SO BUSY AND TIRED WHICH I AREADY NOE ABOUT IT SO DOESN'T CARE THINKING OF TWICE. I REALLY SO TIRED...TIRED! TIRED TO TALK, TO WALK OR TO GO SCHOOL. MY CLASSMATES FOR NOW ALSO TREAT ME QUITE GD TOO AND ALSO GOT FUNNY CUTE FRIENDS WHICH SOMETIME MAKE ME GO SCHOOL JUST TO HAVE A HAPPY MEMORIES FORM THEM. BUT DUE TO THE TIRED OF NOWDAYS AND LAST WEEK MY BODY SO WEAK SO BEEN LESS ATTENDING SCHOOL. I NOT THAT KIND WILL RUN AWAY FORM SCH...I NOT!!! CUS I'M SURE AND MY SEC FRIENDS ALSO NOE I NOT. BUT NOW I LESS ATTEND SCHOOL. AND SOME MORE MY TEACHER ALMOST DUNNOE HW TO TEACH SO MAKE ME MORE HATE TO SCHOOL. I WAN TO HIDE SO NO ONE FIND ME...BEENING TIRED TO U ALL MAYBE NOTHING TO ME JUST IMPORTANT LIKE NOT FOOD ALSO DIE JUS THE SAME THING. AND ONE THING WHICH ALMOST ANY OF MY FRIEND DUNNOE ME IS I AM A VRY ACT-STRONG PERSON CUS I TRY TO BE STRONG JUS NOT TO GET ALL MY LOVES WAN TO WORRIES SO I HAVE ACT-STRONG. AND HUMAN REALLY A JOKER AND A FOOL... MY END OF ROAD DUNNOE STOP AT WHERE, BUT LIFE TOO ME SOMETIME IS FAIR SOMETIME MAKE ME PATHETIC AND IF I EVER BORN IN THIS WORLD WHERE WOULD I GO AND BELONG... MY TEARS CALLING AND SAYING :"I'M TIRED, TIRED...APPLE I REALLY TIRED." REASON WHY I LIKE MY NICKNAME "TEARS" CUS IT REPRESENT MY INSIDE FEELING SO WHY I CALL "TEARS", AND ALSO SOMEONE WHEN I NEED YOU WHERE ARE U...WHERE ARE YOU!!!
TEARS(ME)
MY MIND COMPARE:
Why I hope to go SM ite:
Ans: Cus i dun wan to trouble my dad like last time when i'm studying in Bishan he have to send me when ever i got early lesson. And i cn also with my sec sch fren.
Now why I hate to go SM ite:
Ans: Near my hse so what...make me more and more tired. Sick of walking and taking bus to sch. The ways of teaching is cn sae S.U.X!!!
This week thinking: My mind totally blank due to my limit i have. 1st time so stress out. I wan to hide, run to somewhere which no one cn find me...i'm in dark...when will there be a star for me who willing to help me out and bright my way. who is my star.
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